first and foremost, happy six month anniversary!! if you - if anyone - had told me half a year ago that we would find ourselves here today, i can't imagine there would be any part of me that would believe it. to find something like this with someone like you has felt like a dream come true, only in brighter, more vivid technicolours than i ever thought possible. not a day goes by when i don't feel completely grateful to get to know somebody like you, that i get to spend my days talking with you and listening to you and my nights breathing you in and holding you inside me, that i don't realise how lucky i am to have stumbled upon the gift that you truly are.

i heard a story once that people are born with half a soul and the mystery of life is to find the person that holds the other half and i have found that with you. you are stunning, so endlessly incredible, such a beautiful person from the inside out, that i don't think that i could ever come up with the right combination of verbs and nouns that could ever even come close to describing the way i feel about you, but sometimes i think that words don't need to be said out loud in order for someone to understand what another person means. you and me, we can look at each other and know, share it in whispers in the dark, talk in touches and fingerprints on skin and kisses and all of the other things we like to do, but one day i'll write it all down for you to look back on, so you can have something to hold in your hands to remind you of how we felt today, right now at this very moment, how you felt reading this and knowing how wholly yours i am. this thing i have inside of me grows brighter and hotter with every day that passes and in fifty years when things still feel so new, i'm going to look at you on a day like today, a sunday or maybe it'll be a tuesday, and we can have a laugh about how funny we were when we were so young, when things were so new, and those are the things that i think about.

i hope you enjoy the words of these songs that somehow, all together and all at once, say all the things that are on my mind. happy anniversary, harry styles. i love you with every beat of my heart.